Tests

Will have my oscar test done on Monday. Scared scared scared. Wish someone can give me strength and power. I don't want to send negative signal to my baby. But it's been very hard, not a day gone without me thinking about all those blood tests that's lay out for me down the road. I want the best for my baby and yet I need strength.....how can I make myself happy as the same time be brave going through these tests.....

Trying to reach Kwong Wah hospital to register...will be another blood test waiting for me there.... the thing I probably wouldn't feel much after the test's done and I might even be laughing at myself for wasting all these time and energy over something this trivial... but the thing is I am not there yet....

Part of me don't wanna do the test...part of me want to get it done and dust asap.....confusion...anxiety...scared.....xiaobao gives mommy strength........

Mothers are the noblest being in the whole world!!!!

Not including fathers who aren't afraid of needles or blood tests... lucky them.....but mothers who ARE afraid of these things will still have to go through!!! All Hail Mothers!!!!!

To all the guys in the world, dont even complain about how bitchy women can get, they are entitled to it!!!!!